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What I'm Reading This Week: The Perks of Being A Wallflower by Steven Chbosky What I'm Listening To This Week: Wilco, Garden State Soundtrack, Blink 182, Colin Hay, & Guster

Perfection.

Cyclical feelings Spinning around. An uprising of the unsettling kind. Feelings spread thin From the twisting and turning inside. Portraits of something new Future memories . . . Waiting patiently . . . To find their story, While the former Hang heavy in resonance. A shifting of sorts, An unveiling begins, Within the gap Hope waits on whispers, Yet patience converges within. Ode to the futility of sparks The fate of this day Waits on tomorrow.

As a preliminary side note, my book is starting to take shape from the storyboards and I think I know where I'm going with it now. At least I have the intro and overall idea of where I want to end up. Now I just have to get there. I beg for Garden State to hurry up and open in these redneck parts. I'm sorry that we can't be some freakin special city like LA or New York but just play the freaking movie! I don't mind settling for Napoleon Dynamite for the 10,000th time. I don't know if I can wait until this weekend. But if I have to . . . then I have too. White water rafting, rock climbing/rapelling, and camping on Friday and Saturday. Finish You Shall Know Our Velocity on Friday and Saturday My beard continues to grow on Friday and Saturday Matt's sister comes in town tomorrow to get ready for Friday and Saturday I am making my iPod playlists for Friday and Saturday I will be more awesomer than anyone on Friday and Saturday Then comes Sunday.

And I . . . will follow you Into the desert Into the night And I . . . can see the stars When I'm with you Shining bright And I . . . think I would hurt Would feel pain If there were no us And I . . . would rather waste Would rather fade Into nothingness Than having all their is to have Than knowing all their is to know Than loving all thats left to love And not have . . . you Oh you can have me Its not much I'll admit But you can have me All I am But you can have me All I will be You can have me The best of me Oh you can have me [4x]

Gaps of space Between a day and a day Glimpses in spots Immersion in the reality Indifferent eyes Intertwined with care The distant stare Locked in another place Despite it all Moments were seized Life was lived She got the best of me

What I'm Reading Right Now: You Shall Know Our Velocity by Dave Eggars What I'm Reading This Week: Jason Mraz, Frou Frou, Maroon 5, Donovan Franekreiter, The Shins, Wilco, The Frames

i have decided to finish/start my book that i've started/been wanting to write for the past few years. the month of august is being dedicated to that beginning.

last night i was contemplating stuff. i had lots of "different" experiences yesterday. a wide range of emotions and thoughts. anywho . . . contemplating under the stars with fireflies on a blanket with frou frou playing. very euphoric. lots of jubilation for my heart and rest to my mind. and then i woke up this morning . . .

Open the window Let the sunset in If only for the last time Let me see you smile again I'll take my records You can have your books I'm sorry I never read them But it says so much about us Always trying To make love out of care The perfect recipe But something wasn't there And I wish you Sunrays and Saturdays Perfect starry nights Sweet dreams and moonbeams And a love that's warm and bright Sunrays and Saturdays Friendship strong and true Oceans of blue and a room with a view To live the life you choose You'll write me letters I'll call you on the on the phone A wire away from touching And never quite alone We'll get to know ourselves again And we'll heal our hearts It's not that we're bad together We're just better off apart Always trying To have one and one make two And even though it didn't work I still feel love for you