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What I'm Listening To: Jack Johnson, Ryan Adams, Jimmy Buffett, G-Love and the Special Sauce, Better Than Ezra What I'm Reading: Love in the Ruins by Walker Percy and a book on Hawaii by the Discovery Channel

Sometimes . . . when no one even notices. I smile to myself as I think about somebody who is really goofy or absurd or something else that is just . . . off. They'll be in the same room. And they'll say something that is so insanely jacked up. And it makes me smile. And on the inside I'm laughing my head off cause they essentially are jerks trying to be cool and they think they're right. So they just ramble and ramble and ramble about stupid stuff thats not right even though they think they're right. Which makes me laugh. I should say something. I could say something. But its much more fun to watch the whole get deeper and the tires spin in the rut. I'm not mean. Some people are just crapholes. And even I tried to help them or dialogue with them, they'd just become bigger crapholes. So I watch and smile to myself as I so often do in these parts.

I wonder if anyone else has trouble spelling "February"? I always have to stop and spell it out slowly, letter by letter. And even then I get real insecure about how I spelled it. Yesterday morning I loved my turtles. Last night I resented them. Today I respect them. In the design world, there is a trend towards using little flowery-westerny-looking things. You'd know if you saw it. But they don't have a name. That I know of. Gavin DeGraw. If I wear red pants that are reminiscent of frat boy pants, does that mean I'm a frat boy? Does it mean that I even want to be a frat boy? Certainly not! I like the pants. They're cool. And yet they are stereotypical of frat boys. Why am I insecure about my pants though? Why do I care? I don't want people to think I'm a frat boy. In fact, I don't want them to think of anything when they see my clothes. Yet I know they will as I have. I'm ashamed of this. 28 days. (2) 10 page papers. 25 minute verbal presentation (sermon crap). 2 outlines of Daniel and Revelation. 2 textbooks must be read. notes on 2 textbooks and my reading of them. 15 lesson assignments for 1 class. 18 lesson assignments for 1 class. 28 days. so far . . . 10 lesson assignments from 1 class. I love numbers.