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What am I doing? What kingdom am I living in? Do I live in Christendom or do I live in the kingdom of God? In religion or relationship? Where am I? Where do I stand? This is ridiculous. I want to love God but I don't know how. I don't know what's going on in anymore. I don't know which way is up. If I did, I swear I'd follow it. Things that are making me rethink: Matthew 5:27-30, 6:19-21, 6:28-34, 7:21-23, 8:18-22 Luke 9:23-25, 9:57-62, 13:24-30, 14:25-27, 18:29-30 And don't ever read Kierkegaard. He'll screw up your perfect little world. His sayings: - The difficulty is not to understand what Christianity is, but to become and to be a Christian. - If a person does not become what he understands, then he does not understand it either. - The passion of faith lies not in testifying to an eternal happiness, but in transforming one's own existence into a testimony to it. - Seeking the truth means that the seeker himself is changed, so that he may become the place where the object of his search can be.