Meditations on Job 30:16-19 My scars torment me Day and night they still bleed Always coming, And never relenting I fight back and am triumphant Only to fall back into my own pit Full of my own vomit I thrash around begging for air Craving to be set free But I open the wrong hand And so now my life drains out As callousness seizes and grips me hard Memories gnaw at my bones The misery never lets up I am tied hand and foot My neck in a noose that I've created In my sin, I twist and turn Thrown facedown in the muck I'm a muddy mess, inside and out Black and blue I fade into my burning And there . . . I choke on my own depravity.